When the clock struck six o'clock on Thursday night in mid-April, I closed the lid of my work laptop and sobbed. I had spent the day sitting on the couch in my dimly lit living room, writing non-stop about the coronavirus pandemic. The sudden realization that shutting my computer didn't end the anxiety-provoking health crisis I was tasked with reporting on was too much to handle.

Every night from mid-March until May ended with me in a puddle of tears, feeling trapped and disconnected from everyone and everything.

As someone who's never been diagnosed with a mental illness, the enduring hopelessness I experienced in the first few months of lockdown during the coronavirus pandemic left me confused and defeated.

How could I, someone with a stable job, the ability to work from the safety of my home, and loving friends and family, feel this way? 

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